{"id":408,"date":"2013-09-20T09:00:52","date_gmt":"2013-09-20T14:00:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.wordpress.com\/?p=408"},"modified":"2020-12-08T22:00:49","modified_gmt":"2020-12-08T22:00:49","slug":"lyn-miller-lachmann-separating-writer-from-character","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/2013\/09\/20\/lyn-miller-lachmann-separating-writer-from-character\/","title":{"rendered":"Separating Writer from Character"},"content":{"rendered":"

Many writers yearn to turn their life stories into fiction.<\/p>\n

I avoided it. While I understood the advice \u201cwrite what you know,\u201d I couldn\u2019t bring myself to write about the person I had been in middle and high school \u2014 the weird girl nobody liked, the one other kids teased whenever they got bored.<\/p>\n

In general, downtrodden characters don\u2019t make interesting or appealing protagonists (at least until they take action to change the situation), and I didn\u2019t want to relive those years anyway. However, when I received my diagnosis of Asperger\u2019s syndrome, a mild form of autism, seven years ago, I thought of all the young people today who face the social challenges and bullying that I faced decades earlier. I wanted to create a character like me, but one who fights back against the way others treat her in a way that I never did.<\/p>\n

I started with an incident from middle school that still haunted me decades later. In seventh grade, I decided that I could become part of the popular girls\u2019 group by sitting at their table at lunch. As soon as I set my tray down, all of the girls stopped talking. One of them stood and pushed my tray to the floor. I began to cry, and everyone around me laughed.<\/p>\n

\"Cover<\/a><\/center><\/div>In Rogue<\/i>, Kiara doesn\u2019t just stand around crying. She picks up the tray and slams it into the girl\u2019s face, thus getting herself suspended from school for the rest of the year. I wished I could have done that \u2014 both to get back at the girl who tormented me and to get out of going to a school I hated \u2014 but my parents were strict and they would have severely punished me. Kiara\u2019s parents, on the other hand, are struggling economically, and her mother has to take a job in another city to support the family. Because her mother isn\u2019t around, Kiara has a lot more freedom than I had to make decisions about her life \u2014 both good and bad.<\/p>\n

Of course, Kiara isn\u2019t me but a character I created, a character whose actions I control the way I control the actions, say, of a doll or a LEGO minifigure. However, characters tend to take on their own life in the story, as they interact with other characters and with the setting. For the first ten years of my life, I grew up in a working-class neighborhood in a sprawling city in the South, after which my family moved to an upscale suburb. Kiara lives in a working-class rural New England community across the river from a wealthier college town. Rogue <\/i>takes place in 2006, long after my own middle school years.<\/p>\n

These differences of setting and family situation helped me to separate Kiara\u2019s story from my own. In addition, I wanted her to be bilingual and bicultural, which I am not (although I have a decent command of Spanish and Portuguese, acquired later in life). That is an important reason why she hasn\u2019t yet been diagnosed at a time in which our awareness of Asperger\u2019s and autism is much greater than it was when I was growing up. Her parents have their own difficulties communicating because her mother speaks Spanish primarily and her father only speaks English. People who aren\u2019t aware of the research on bilingual language development might believe that growing up with two languages spoken at home led to Kiara\u2019s temporary muteness in kindergarten (which happened to me as well in early elementary school even though I grew up in an monolingual household). At the same time, Kiara\u2019s experience of two languages helps her to understand people and their emotions, as it did for me much later when I started learning Spanish in middle school.<\/p>\n

For some of Kiara\u2019s story, I had to do research because it wasn\u2019t part of my experience. For example, while I appreciated the early X-Men for their focus on characters who were different and rejected by society, the lack of female role models meant I didn\u2019t actually become a fan the way Kiara is. I had to do research to find out about the X-Men characters Rogue and Gambit because they didn\u2019t exist when I was growing up.<\/p>\n

Basically, I wove my experiences into the creation of my main character, but she isn\u2019t me.\u00a0 She isn\u2019t even a twenty-first century version of me. She has taken on a life of her own, because she is the product of parents who are very different from mine, she lives in a community that is very different from mine, and the people around her with whom she interacts \u2014 like Chad and Brandon and Antonio \u2014 aren\u2019t the people I knew when I was that age.<\/p>\n

I wrote Rogue<\/i> because I wanted some good to come out of my suffering in middle and high school. However, I didn\u2019t want to present my experiences in the form of an autobiography or a memoir. My life was lonely and boring, and I didn\u2019t make much effort to change my situation even when presented with the opportunity. At the same time, my status as an outsider looking into a world I struggled to understand and join honed my powers of observation and my imagination. I imagined what could have happened, say, had I picked up the tray and slammed it into my tormentor\u2019s face. It took me decades to find my voice as a writer \u2014 what I consider my special power \u2014 but I know what it felt like when I did. I could transfer that feeling to my character, who finds a very different special power over the six-week time frame of the novel.<\/p>\n

That is the advantage of fiction. The writer isn\u2019t wedded to the truth. We can change the truth in service to the story. We should<\/i> change the truth in service to the story, because the story always comes first. We can create characters that combine what we were like with what we wish we were like. If we didn\u2019t make good choices, our characters give us a do-over. Our characters can make the spectacularly bad choices we didn\u2019t make, face the consequences, and grow in the process of trying to recover or make amends. Finally, we can end our stories with hope, even if we didn\u2019t discover that hope ourselves until many years later.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When I received my diagnosis of Asperger\u2019s syndrome seven years ago, I thought of all the young people today who face the social challenges and bullying that I faced decades earlier. I wanted to create a character like me, but one who fights back against the way others treat her in a way that I never did.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":29,"featured_media":409,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_generate-full-width-content":"","kt_blocks_editor_width":""},"categories":[57],"tags":[103],"genre":[],"age_category":[],"disability":[7],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/408"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/29"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=408"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/408\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7054,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/408\/revisions\/7054"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/409"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=408"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=408"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=408"},{"taxonomy":"genre","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/genre?post=408"},{"taxonomy":"age_category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/age_category?post=408"},{"taxonomy":"disability","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/disabilityinkidlit.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/disability?post=408"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}